prepective

I got a call yesterday, that I needed to return for a retake on a mammagram. The doctor wants to do another mammagram and a ultrasound. So NATURALLY...I am nervous. Any one that knows me, also knows what my first thought was....I have breast cancer.
So yesterday and last night I spent sad....not just for me but for Bruce and Jade. What if something happened to me. Who would Bruce laugh at or with? Who's face would he kiss? and Jade......who would be her go to girl(as she called me) who would she ask her girl guestions? who would listen to her and understand her...like only mom can? who's feet would she rub? And if I had one thing to tell them both it would be that Nobody will ever love them as much as I do!!!!

I was reading my daughters blog, I love to read what she writes. She alway's puts things perfectly. What I have decided is that I long to be the mother that she is...I know that none of us are perfect, BUT....I have to admitt that she comes pretty close! She is the kind of mother that I dreamed of being. I hope I was some of her! I was talking to someone yesterday, she was concerned about something that had been said about her parenting, and asked for my advice, what I told her was that all any of can do is the best we can,there is always going to be someone that doesn't agree with us, that thinks they could do it better, that we don't do it right,or don't do enough or do to much! As long as we do the best we can for the percious children that God has entrusted us with, love them with the same unconditional love that He loves us with it will all be good!Don't beat yourself up over how much you DIDN'T play with them...or how messy your house is, you know at the end of the day MOST of it they're not going to remember anyway....sorry, but it's true!