tired....................................

I'm just tired. Mind,Body and Soul tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just a thought

I read my niece Alex's blog...the one about Granddaddy O. It brought back many thoughts of those last day's. I for one will never forget standing at the end of the table in the doctors office at Duke...and him going in to cardiac arrest, and being the one to catch him keeping him from hitting the ground as his eyes rolled back.Something I never want to see again! That was the very first time it dawned on me that none of us are here forever. He was a good man,one of the best men I know, and he loved me, with all my crazy way's and all. And he loved his grand kids all of them. But I think Nicholas held that special place in his heart.

see.......I told you I was bad at this

It has been a month since I last wrote! I told you I was bad at this.I have good intentions, really! Maybe that is where my oldest son gets that from, I really believe that he has good intentions...I am sure of it. But for the life of him he can't follow through on MOST things! For many reason's this has been a very hard month.I feel like I am always complaining, and I don't mean to, I really don't mind helping people, I think it's just when it seems to go unappreciated, that it really bothers me. My mom is a very needy person ALWAYS has been, and in her defense she has needed help this past year, and we have been there, and there and there!BUT she wants me there all the time, for crazy stuff,(I should drive a 70 mile trip just for bread) and I can't go everyday....THINGS ARE TIGHT!!!!!!Nobody seems to understand that!But who would when someone does everything for you???My dad died in Feb. of 2008. I'm missing him too! He left things unfinished in so many ways...in ways I would have never believed! I just never would have believed I I (we) would have to take care of my mom! But I miss being able to talk to my dad! That's all...
I just finished a really good book...Setting Boundaries with Your Adult Children. It is a great book by the way! If you only knew how many books I've read to learn how to do just that....I'll let you know when I figure it out!